Being a Mother

The verb definition of a mother is- “bring up (a child) with care and affection.” The day I became a mother, my whole world changed. From then on, it wasn’t only Michael, Azteca and I to worry about. Now we had two newborn lives to raise. These past 14 months have been nothing short of incredible. On Mother’s Day last year Santiago and Sofia were only two months old and barely making weight. As I reflect on the past year, I cannot help but continuously feel blessed to be a mother. Raising Santiago and Sofia has helped me appreciate all that my mother did for me. My mother was a single mother most of my childhood. I was always so rebellious towards her for that and never understood all of the sacrifices she had to make in order for my sister and I to have the childhood we had.

Sacrifices- I believe you know what that word means when you become a mother. I put Santiago and Sofia first in all that I do and say. They are a reflection on how I act, and I hope that one day I can make them proud that I am their mother. Since Santiago and Sofia were born I have had to make many sacrifices; sacrifices in my day-to-day life, sacrifices in my marriage, and sacrifices in my friendships. They both take so much of me but at the end of the day, I cant help but get down on my knees and thank the Lord for giving me the most perfect blessings I could ever pray for.

With Michaels job, I am often left at home for various lengths of time. During those times I become frustrated with myself, with Santiago and Sofia, and with Michael. If there are milestones that they aren’t achieving, I constantly think to myself that I am doing something wrong as a parent. I’ve since learned that those are but miniscule worries of the heart. My babies are healthy, they are growing, and they are definitely learning. For all of those things I am grateful.

Being a mother to me takes compassion. You must give all of you to another with zero expectation of anything in return; much like unconditional love. “We love because He first loved us.” – 1 John 4:19. I will never get tired of that verse. The love I have for my babies is possible because He loves us SO much. The pain, the fear, the insecurities, the frustration. I can go on and on but I overcome it all by the grace of God. It is so incredible how far faith and trust can take you. I give it all to Santiago and Sofia. They are my largest achievement. I could never be more proud of anything else in life.

May your Mother’s Day be filled with so much joy.

Love your mother’s, love yourself and love your children, always-

Amanda

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Mother’s Day 2016- my beautiful, complete familia. 

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